Binaural Forum

I apologize if there is a dose similar to this. As far as I am aware of DXM and Dexies is the only thing to come close. I am looking for a dose that puts you in such a deep state of mind you forget about your existence. You forget where you are, you forget what your environment looks, feels and even smells like. Now with your mind drowning you in a chaos matrix of thoughts and ideas battering the inside of your skull you also experience intense or mild euphoria, give you an eternal falling feeling. As though your leaning in your chair that split second before you react you feel like your going to die. but you feel that falling sensation until the dose ends with no fear.

I dont know what to call it or if it even exists. But I want it.