First timer-- Heroin-- Crazy experience
Posted: Wed Sep 26, 2012 8:24 pm
Hey everyone! I'm new to these forums and to dosing, but not to intoxicants. I learned of I-Dosing last night, did some reading, and decided to take the plunge. I read through the forums, the how-to's and troubleshooting and prepared myself to practice and face failure time and again in order to get it right. Luckily, I'm no stranger to either drugs or meditation, and I think that may have helped me today.
This afternoon, I chose my old friend heroin, loaded it up, popped on my Skullcandies, tied a bandana around my eyes, and reclined comfortably on my couch, not really expecting much, but ready to put in my time, to try and get it right.
At first, all I heard was a tone, a single tone, but I remembered reading in a forum post that you were listening right if you could hear, "wawawawa," instead of, "waaaaa," so I began to listen closely and relax my mind like I typically do during meditation, specifically presentness meditation. In just a few minutes, I was perceiving the beats, along with a little white noise, a faint high pitched whine, and a very low pitch, that varies from scratches to bumps. I began to feel warm and comfy, much like real heroin feels. But then it happened.
I felt like a third eye opened. No, really. I dig that this dose really isn't supposed to do this, but I am reporting my experience and here we go. This was a sensation I've only known from RL DXM, and I know my eyes are closed, but I could see. I could look around stare at everything in detail. It was like looking at a colored gauze over my eyes. The color of the gauze was initially blue, but as the dose went on, it changed to green, later red, and finally ending in purple. While the "gauze" was blue, there were mild ripples, some slight movement but nothing striking. Shortly after it faded into green, HOLY SH*T! A hole opened in the gauze and there was a tiger, standing very close to me. SWEET JESUS THIS THING ACTUALLY WORKS. My incredulity faded; as I watched, the tiger walked backwards away from me, the hole in the gauze receding as the tiger did. I realized I was actually doing something real, and settled in for the ride.
The next hole in the gauze was a man, standing fairly close to me, but not too close. He too backed away from me, walking slowly backwards to some stairs and then up them, his eyes never leaving me. At this point I was maybe 15 minutes in. In between holes in the gauze, the gauze shook and shimmied, even growing tentacles and becoming various swirling geometric patterns that I'm familiar with from psychedelic drug use in the past. My dose continued, and I saw many holes in the gauze, lots of different people, some kind of a demon lord with huge horns, and, most interestingly, a herd of wildebeests stampeding around me(probably the peak of the dose).
At one point, I moved to adjust my bandana, and everything stopped. All the visuals, the warmth and euphoria, even the sound went all the way back to a simple tone like a dial tone. But, again, I relaxed my mind, listened for the beats in the tone, and in just a minute I was all the way back in.
When it was over, I sat for an indeterminate period of time, actually thinking the sound was still going on, when in fact, it wasn't!! But I was still flying high, CEV and all. I removed the blindfold and lit a cigarette, and enjoyed a euphoric afterglow that lasted about 7-10 minutes.
All in all, this was utterly astounding. I am shocked. Shocked! I cannot wait to try doses that are supposed to actually be hallucinogenic. Frankly, I can't wait to try them all. I feel like Huey Lewis, wanting a new drug and holy cow! It exists! So many flavors to try. I feel like a kid at Christmas.
I hope none of this seems crazy. I wouldn't normally post this kind of thing but I am so amazed at the power of these things, I can. not. wait!!! to try them all. I think tonight I'll probably try LSD. But I want to try A-Bomb, a designer drug I have actually done, to see how close they get. Wow. All I can say is wow.
Thanks for reading everyone. I'll be happy to share further experiences if anyone has any interest.
P.S. I have been totally clean from actual drugs for over 6 years now, but in my using days, I used them all. All of them. Literally all of the drugs in the drug simulation doses, I have intimate knowledge of. I will be a good litmus test to see how these doses stack up against the real thing.
This afternoon, I chose my old friend heroin, loaded it up, popped on my Skullcandies, tied a bandana around my eyes, and reclined comfortably on my couch, not really expecting much, but ready to put in my time, to try and get it right.
At first, all I heard was a tone, a single tone, but I remembered reading in a forum post that you were listening right if you could hear, "wawawawa," instead of, "waaaaa," so I began to listen closely and relax my mind like I typically do during meditation, specifically presentness meditation. In just a few minutes, I was perceiving the beats, along with a little white noise, a faint high pitched whine, and a very low pitch, that varies from scratches to bumps. I began to feel warm and comfy, much like real heroin feels. But then it happened.
I felt like a third eye opened. No, really. I dig that this dose really isn't supposed to do this, but I am reporting my experience and here we go. This was a sensation I've only known from RL DXM, and I know my eyes are closed, but I could see. I could look around stare at everything in detail. It was like looking at a colored gauze over my eyes. The color of the gauze was initially blue, but as the dose went on, it changed to green, later red, and finally ending in purple. While the "gauze" was blue, there were mild ripples, some slight movement but nothing striking. Shortly after it faded into green, HOLY SH*T! A hole opened in the gauze and there was a tiger, standing very close to me. SWEET JESUS THIS THING ACTUALLY WORKS. My incredulity faded; as I watched, the tiger walked backwards away from me, the hole in the gauze receding as the tiger did. I realized I was actually doing something real, and settled in for the ride.
The next hole in the gauze was a man, standing fairly close to me, but not too close. He too backed away from me, walking slowly backwards to some stairs and then up them, his eyes never leaving me. At this point I was maybe 15 minutes in. In between holes in the gauze, the gauze shook and shimmied, even growing tentacles and becoming various swirling geometric patterns that I'm familiar with from psychedelic drug use in the past. My dose continued, and I saw many holes in the gauze, lots of different people, some kind of a demon lord with huge horns, and, most interestingly, a herd of wildebeests stampeding around me(probably the peak of the dose).
At one point, I moved to adjust my bandana, and everything stopped. All the visuals, the warmth and euphoria, even the sound went all the way back to a simple tone like a dial tone. But, again, I relaxed my mind, listened for the beats in the tone, and in just a minute I was all the way back in.
When it was over, I sat for an indeterminate period of time, actually thinking the sound was still going on, when in fact, it wasn't!! But I was still flying high, CEV and all. I removed the blindfold and lit a cigarette, and enjoyed a euphoric afterglow that lasted about 7-10 minutes.
All in all, this was utterly astounding. I am shocked. Shocked! I cannot wait to try doses that are supposed to actually be hallucinogenic. Frankly, I can't wait to try them all. I feel like Huey Lewis, wanting a new drug and holy cow! It exists! So many flavors to try. I feel like a kid at Christmas.
I hope none of this seems crazy. I wouldn't normally post this kind of thing but I am so amazed at the power of these things, I can. not. wait!!! to try them all. I think tonight I'll probably try LSD. But I want to try A-Bomb, a designer drug I have actually done, to see how close they get. Wow. All I can say is wow.
Thanks for reading everyone. I'll be happy to share further experiences if anyone has any interest.
P.S. I have been totally clean from actual drugs for over 6 years now, but in my using days, I used them all. All of them. Literally all of the drugs in the drug simulation doses, I have intimate knowledge of. I will be a good litmus test to see how these doses stack up against the real thing.
