Wind and Valkyries. ( Hand of God dose)
Posted: Thu Sep 30, 2010 5:19 pm
Wow. To begin, I would like to point out that at this time, everything still feels ethereal, and it has been over 30 minutes since the last dose ended.
The sky was overcast, dotted with dark gray regions of thick clouds; in the precipice of a storm. The wind was blowing uncharacteristically hard, maybe 30mph. I love the wind, so I figured I would grab my Buddhist prayer bowl and meditate in the quad of my university. I decided to bring my iphone along to listen to calming music while I walked there. Once in the middle of the grassy area, I faced the wind and started running the stick along the edge of the bowl, making that beautiful drone. I did this for about 7 minutes, when I decided to end it, as some people had started to populate the quad (it was almost barren when I started). I got to walking around, and looked at my phone to respond to a text; and then I saw it, my iDoser app was the exact thing I wanted. I entered a smaller quad, one with some lawn chairs just sitting there for people to use, 2 of the chairs were already filled by people who looked to be asleep listening to music through earbuds, so I sat in a third chair across from them, about 20ft away. I decided to try Hand Of God, as I have had some good effects with it before (most doses don't do much for me, but I keep trying), closed my eyes, and tilted my face to the sky. The chorus and drum line at the beginning annoyed me, as always, but after they past ( maybe 5 or 6 minutes in), I felt reality shift- almost like I was smeared through existence like a smudge of wet ink. I felt people walking around me, encircling me, so I cracked open my eyes to look around; no one but the two guys sleeping in chairs. As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt it again, but this time the clouds had thinned and the sun shone on my, making the red light of closed eyes, through which I saw several black silhouettes, 4 of them. I opened my eyes again, but still saw nothing. When I closed my eyes again I was cast back into that smudged reality feeling, but now the silhouettes were talking, conversing with one another. I could see others flying past or just walking around the nigh vacant quad. They told me that they were Valkyries; making me remember a dream I had had not too long ago, and that they were sent to me. "Why?" I asked in my head. They gave no response. I felt and saw (still with closed eyes) a gleaming golden ladder materialize in front of me- they told me to climb it. I thought it was silly and didn't. Then they got angry at me and told me to climb again. I leaned forward and tried to grab it, my hand falling through the rungs. They told each other that I wasn't ready yet.
Then the dose ended.
I was kind of freaking out, but in a good way, so I got out of the chair and laid down on the grass and turned it on again. I remember hearing about 40 seconds of the second dose before they came back and started talking to each other, this time they were facing away from me, almost like they were guarding me. I'm not sure exactly what happened after that, but I eventually found myself siting upright, the wind still whipping around me. I, still with closed eyes, looked at the ground, and laying on the ground was what looked like a small stiletto dagger, it handle a smudged black, and the blade a blue-ish white wispy glowing beam, tendrils of what felt like energy flowed from it into the surrounding air. At this point I realized that I could see my surroundings quite well for having closed eyes on a cloudy day, and thought it quite odd. I picked up the dagger and moved it around. One of the figures told me that it was mine and I should take care of it, and that it would grow. I asked how, and it said that it couldn't tell me, but I was on the right track. after focusing on the blade for a while, I felt compelled to use my left wrist as a sheath, storing the blade in me. So I opened my left hand, and slid the blade in, parallel to my ulna. I can still feel it there as I type.
The dose ended shortly there after. I walked around in a slight daze, talked with a friend and then went back to my dorm to type this.
Thoughts?
The sky was overcast, dotted with dark gray regions of thick clouds; in the precipice of a storm. The wind was blowing uncharacteristically hard, maybe 30mph. I love the wind, so I figured I would grab my Buddhist prayer bowl and meditate in the quad of my university. I decided to bring my iphone along to listen to calming music while I walked there. Once in the middle of the grassy area, I faced the wind and started running the stick along the edge of the bowl, making that beautiful drone. I did this for about 7 minutes, when I decided to end it, as some people had started to populate the quad (it was almost barren when I started). I got to walking around, and looked at my phone to respond to a text; and then I saw it, my iDoser app was the exact thing I wanted. I entered a smaller quad, one with some lawn chairs just sitting there for people to use, 2 of the chairs were already filled by people who looked to be asleep listening to music through earbuds, so I sat in a third chair across from them, about 20ft away. I decided to try Hand Of God, as I have had some good effects with it before (most doses don't do much for me, but I keep trying), closed my eyes, and tilted my face to the sky. The chorus and drum line at the beginning annoyed me, as always, but after they past ( maybe 5 or 6 minutes in), I felt reality shift- almost like I was smeared through existence like a smudge of wet ink. I felt people walking around me, encircling me, so I cracked open my eyes to look around; no one but the two guys sleeping in chairs. As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt it again, but this time the clouds had thinned and the sun shone on my, making the red light of closed eyes, through which I saw several black silhouettes, 4 of them. I opened my eyes again, but still saw nothing. When I closed my eyes again I was cast back into that smudged reality feeling, but now the silhouettes were talking, conversing with one another. I could see others flying past or just walking around the nigh vacant quad. They told me that they were Valkyries; making me remember a dream I had had not too long ago, and that they were sent to me. "Why?" I asked in my head. They gave no response. I felt and saw (still with closed eyes) a gleaming golden ladder materialize in front of me- they told me to climb it. I thought it was silly and didn't. Then they got angry at me and told me to climb again. I leaned forward and tried to grab it, my hand falling through the rungs. They told each other that I wasn't ready yet.
Then the dose ended.
I was kind of freaking out, but in a good way, so I got out of the chair and laid down on the grass and turned it on again. I remember hearing about 40 seconds of the second dose before they came back and started talking to each other, this time they were facing away from me, almost like they were guarding me. I'm not sure exactly what happened after that, but I eventually found myself siting upright, the wind still whipping around me. I, still with closed eyes, looked at the ground, and laying on the ground was what looked like a small stiletto dagger, it handle a smudged black, and the blade a blue-ish white wispy glowing beam, tendrils of what felt like energy flowed from it into the surrounding air. At this point I realized that I could see my surroundings quite well for having closed eyes on a cloudy day, and thought it quite odd. I picked up the dagger and moved it around. One of the figures told me that it was mine and I should take care of it, and that it would grow. I asked how, and it said that it couldn't tell me, but I was on the right track. after focusing on the blade for a while, I felt compelled to use my left wrist as a sheath, storing the blade in me. So I opened my left hand, and slid the blade in, parallel to my ulna. I can still feel it there as I type.
The dose ended shortly there after. I walked around in a slight daze, talked with a friend and then went back to my dorm to type this.
Thoughts?
