A trip to remember
Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 1:24 am
This was my first working experience. I'd tried Idoser with no effect a couple years ago, so I thought I'd try it again now that I'm older and have a better understanding of how it works. I decided though to try it a little differently. I decided to have a friend sync up three doses to play one right after the other, as if it was a flawless radio transfer. Three separate idoser applications open, three different doses, ready to be played as soon as one finished. I decided to start my journey with Hand of God.
I decided to start with the dose that seems to have baffled the general idoser community. I remember thinking as I layed down, a calm feeling that it wouldn't work as so many doses before. But I was wrong. I was told to try Hand of God because it was one of the most profound experiences my friend had, and he said the investment was more than worth it. I decided to mix it because there were 2 other doses I was curious about. The headphones went on and I steeled myself not to go back. At the start of the dose I was calm, listening to the noise that came in through my sennheiser 202 HD's. It hit quick and hard, I knew it was too late and even if I wanted to, I couldn't take off the headphones
The Trip: Hand of God(Part 1)
The noise started, it was dark, an abyss that seemed to gain infinite depth, an expansive tunnel, I was stuck in the middle. I saw a small glimmer at what seemed to be the end of the tunnel, and I tried to make myself see what the light was. Maybe that is the light that is going to lead to my first experience. The light faded, the tunnel closed in. What was once a road now seemed like a black expance, wiggling and moving, a metallic sea of shadow in my mind, an environment I'd fallen into. I was no longer in my bed, I was gone. Rapid Eye Movement set in. The movement of the wiggling shadow like tentacles became more adamant, a soft floating feeling, in this sphere of moving black infinite space. REM continued in this place for 5 minutes, almost 10 into the dose. I was now on my feet, a green environment, a forest, bleak, no more than trees could be seen beyond where I was. Talking trees, billowing, weaving in the forest. Crying, Laughing, Taunting. The ground was not friend, but the messenger. It grabbed up my legs, pulling me down. More Black, a faint smell of decay, rotting death, I see only a black sky, and filling it are the screams of the disembodied. As I'm walking all I see around me are mountains of ash, towers of twisted bone and metal, flesh and eyes, all watching. Watching me, watching the sky, watching the ground. Not a feeling of despair nor fear filled me, a feeling of sense of purpose. I can't put into proper words what I saw, only to say it seemed like a Lovecraftian realm of horror, only none overcame me. I can't remember how many tangled masses of living bone I passed, at times floating above, at times trapped withing, all the writhing things moving around me. I remember seeing a gate, a giant what could have been called door, but not a door. I can only deem this the gate of knowledge. Covered in hundreds, thousands of eyes, a massive construct built only to be so awe inspiring. If built it was. I remember watching the gate, almost nod at me, instead blinking, a solid single blink, all the eyes in the land, simultaneously. I started to see stone carvings, man made of ancient pagan gods, mars, odin, zeus, aphrodite, artemis, luna, gods and goddesses alike from paths that I've studied and practiced, and from ones I'm familiar with, each stone statue followed by a lifelike rendition of each, only small glimpses. After the glimpses stop, I'm back in the forest following a woman who radiates pure divinity, a safe place, leading me somewhere, but the beats start to fade, as she looks one last time the images fade and I hear a drum beat, steady. My heart. The dose fades. DMT begins.
The Trip: DMT(Part 2)
This portion of the trip was slightly lighter, calmer even. The dose picked up from the very end of Hand of God. No more hellish expanse, no more forest. Colors, geometry, sounds and thoughts. Audio and Visual of conversations people seemed to be having. Real or not I couldn't tell, With each wave of noise the conversations would be drowned out, only to be replaced with another hallucination. I can't recall all of what was said. At one point the doctors discussed among themselves, the cost that the coma was having on the patient, doctors look at bed, I realized it was me, scene fade. A dark alley way with two shady individuals, some sort of organized crime. Talking about inside mutiny, a traitor, mistakes made that would end up doing unimaginable things to them, they look out, paranoid, scene fade. A new city, dark, bleak, the world flips upside down, the new ground filled with holes, underground world of expanse, through the rabbit hole and I'm staring at a star filled sky, scene fade. More colors and geometric shapes, I see things changing, I get glimpses of landscapes, buildings, places unknown of, I feel as though I'm lifting off my bed and teetering on a hammock, faster and faster. It stops, consciousness fades in and out, I think I'm sleeping but realize I'm awake, I hear myself snoring, the rest of the dose plays out and I ride it out in a general calm. Fade into Nightshade.
The Trip: Nightshade(Part 3)
This being the longest dose, I wasn't sure what would happen, this was supposed to be one of the strongest doses. At this point I've lost sense of time, location, and wtf is happening anymore. The dose starts off high pitch then lowers. I honestly can't remember what I experienced in the first portion of the dose. My memory is a blank until at least 5 minutes in. I find myself in a mountain valley, rocks being broken, gnomes, or dwarf like humanoids protecting the earth, talking about the sacredness of the earth and the element of it. I'm then kneeling in a deep hall before another of these figures, I can't remember what happens, a hand rests on my shoulder, I'm lying face down in an open area of the safe forest from when Hand of God was playing. The same woman from the very end was there, helping me up. Looking at her I see into her thoughts, she doesn't speak. Beautiful and pure landscapes, what the earth may have looked like before it was destroyed by our expansion, the earth in the purest, most raw natural state, almost as if it was treaded by the gods themselves. I see a golden light shining, my mind seems to expand, I almost seem to grasp everything in this moment, then I'm dropped from the light. I'm on the floor of my old house, giant insects inherit it, not insects though, I look closer and they're spiders, shaped like ants but spiders, I feel as though I'm trapped in a web unable to get out. Back to more colors, shining brilliant lights, I see the woman again, she disappears. Back in a forest of plants, they seem to be the same thing, the nightshade plant itself, all overgrown, human height. Images then flashed past me, temples, buildings, old, roman, gothic, religious, spiritual places. I can't remember what all I saw, at this point it starts to fade, what little I remember is so skewed. By the time I was done with Nightshade I was so baffled. My head didn't hurt but I was exhausted.
I slept for a couple hours after it was all done. The feeling of being led on a trip that long is indescribable. I've not had luck before with I-doser and the fact that I had that long and intense of a trip baffled me. I couldn't explain everything I saw, which is why I tried to tell it in story form, and comma into short segments of audio or visual hallucinations. Most of these didn't last too long, but my sense of time and being were completely lost, I didn't even feel like I was in my body anymore. At the start of the DMT dose I actually thought I was having an OOB/Astral experience. I can't say for certain, but the things I saw were amazing, and baffling. Sometimes mind-blowing. I don't do drugs becacuse I don't see a point in them, but idoser definitely caused things for me that I didn't know were possible. After having the experience I did...all I can really say is holy shit. Not everything I experienced is even listed because it's so hard to remember all the details well enough to describe them. Most of the things couldn't be described. I can honestly say though, it was on of the most euphoric, mind opening experiences I've ever had. Holy Shit.
Edit: And after reading through the forum I've just found out that there are very few legitimate copies of HoG actually purchased. I'll have to ask him if he's got a reciept for the purchase of it and update, but I plan on buying the MP3 version soon to see if it was the real deal. Regardless if it was or not, it was quite an experience to behold.
I decided to start with the dose that seems to have baffled the general idoser community. I remember thinking as I layed down, a calm feeling that it wouldn't work as so many doses before. But I was wrong. I was told to try Hand of God because it was one of the most profound experiences my friend had, and he said the investment was more than worth it. I decided to mix it because there were 2 other doses I was curious about. The headphones went on and I steeled myself not to go back. At the start of the dose I was calm, listening to the noise that came in through my sennheiser 202 HD's. It hit quick and hard, I knew it was too late and even if I wanted to, I couldn't take off the headphones
The Trip: Hand of God(Part 1)
The noise started, it was dark, an abyss that seemed to gain infinite depth, an expansive tunnel, I was stuck in the middle. I saw a small glimmer at what seemed to be the end of the tunnel, and I tried to make myself see what the light was. Maybe that is the light that is going to lead to my first experience. The light faded, the tunnel closed in. What was once a road now seemed like a black expance, wiggling and moving, a metallic sea of shadow in my mind, an environment I'd fallen into. I was no longer in my bed, I was gone. Rapid Eye Movement set in. The movement of the wiggling shadow like tentacles became more adamant, a soft floating feeling, in this sphere of moving black infinite space. REM continued in this place for 5 minutes, almost 10 into the dose. I was now on my feet, a green environment, a forest, bleak, no more than trees could be seen beyond where I was. Talking trees, billowing, weaving in the forest. Crying, Laughing, Taunting. The ground was not friend, but the messenger. It grabbed up my legs, pulling me down. More Black, a faint smell of decay, rotting death, I see only a black sky, and filling it are the screams of the disembodied. As I'm walking all I see around me are mountains of ash, towers of twisted bone and metal, flesh and eyes, all watching. Watching me, watching the sky, watching the ground. Not a feeling of despair nor fear filled me, a feeling of sense of purpose. I can't put into proper words what I saw, only to say it seemed like a Lovecraftian realm of horror, only none overcame me. I can't remember how many tangled masses of living bone I passed, at times floating above, at times trapped withing, all the writhing things moving around me. I remember seeing a gate, a giant what could have been called door, but not a door. I can only deem this the gate of knowledge. Covered in hundreds, thousands of eyes, a massive construct built only to be so awe inspiring. If built it was. I remember watching the gate, almost nod at me, instead blinking, a solid single blink, all the eyes in the land, simultaneously. I started to see stone carvings, man made of ancient pagan gods, mars, odin, zeus, aphrodite, artemis, luna, gods and goddesses alike from paths that I've studied and practiced, and from ones I'm familiar with, each stone statue followed by a lifelike rendition of each, only small glimpses. After the glimpses stop, I'm back in the forest following a woman who radiates pure divinity, a safe place, leading me somewhere, but the beats start to fade, as she looks one last time the images fade and I hear a drum beat, steady. My heart. The dose fades. DMT begins.
The Trip: DMT(Part 2)
This portion of the trip was slightly lighter, calmer even. The dose picked up from the very end of Hand of God. No more hellish expanse, no more forest. Colors, geometry, sounds and thoughts. Audio and Visual of conversations people seemed to be having. Real or not I couldn't tell, With each wave of noise the conversations would be drowned out, only to be replaced with another hallucination. I can't recall all of what was said. At one point the doctors discussed among themselves, the cost that the coma was having on the patient, doctors look at bed, I realized it was me, scene fade. A dark alley way with two shady individuals, some sort of organized crime. Talking about inside mutiny, a traitor, mistakes made that would end up doing unimaginable things to them, they look out, paranoid, scene fade. A new city, dark, bleak, the world flips upside down, the new ground filled with holes, underground world of expanse, through the rabbit hole and I'm staring at a star filled sky, scene fade. More colors and geometric shapes, I see things changing, I get glimpses of landscapes, buildings, places unknown of, I feel as though I'm lifting off my bed and teetering on a hammock, faster and faster. It stops, consciousness fades in and out, I think I'm sleeping but realize I'm awake, I hear myself snoring, the rest of the dose plays out and I ride it out in a general calm. Fade into Nightshade.
The Trip: Nightshade(Part 3)
This being the longest dose, I wasn't sure what would happen, this was supposed to be one of the strongest doses. At this point I've lost sense of time, location, and wtf is happening anymore. The dose starts off high pitch then lowers. I honestly can't remember what I experienced in the first portion of the dose. My memory is a blank until at least 5 minutes in. I find myself in a mountain valley, rocks being broken, gnomes, or dwarf like humanoids protecting the earth, talking about the sacredness of the earth and the element of it. I'm then kneeling in a deep hall before another of these figures, I can't remember what happens, a hand rests on my shoulder, I'm lying face down in an open area of the safe forest from when Hand of God was playing. The same woman from the very end was there, helping me up. Looking at her I see into her thoughts, she doesn't speak. Beautiful and pure landscapes, what the earth may have looked like before it was destroyed by our expansion, the earth in the purest, most raw natural state, almost as if it was treaded by the gods themselves. I see a golden light shining, my mind seems to expand, I almost seem to grasp everything in this moment, then I'm dropped from the light. I'm on the floor of my old house, giant insects inherit it, not insects though, I look closer and they're spiders, shaped like ants but spiders, I feel as though I'm trapped in a web unable to get out. Back to more colors, shining brilliant lights, I see the woman again, she disappears. Back in a forest of plants, they seem to be the same thing, the nightshade plant itself, all overgrown, human height. Images then flashed past me, temples, buildings, old, roman, gothic, religious, spiritual places. I can't remember what all I saw, at this point it starts to fade, what little I remember is so skewed. By the time I was done with Nightshade I was so baffled. My head didn't hurt but I was exhausted.
I slept for a couple hours after it was all done. The feeling of being led on a trip that long is indescribable. I've not had luck before with I-doser and the fact that I had that long and intense of a trip baffled me. I couldn't explain everything I saw, which is why I tried to tell it in story form, and comma into short segments of audio or visual hallucinations. Most of these didn't last too long, but my sense of time and being were completely lost, I didn't even feel like I was in my body anymore. At the start of the DMT dose I actually thought I was having an OOB/Astral experience. I can't say for certain, but the things I saw were amazing, and baffling. Sometimes mind-blowing. I don't do drugs becacuse I don't see a point in them, but idoser definitely caused things for me that I didn't know were possible. After having the experience I did...all I can really say is holy shit. Not everything I experienced is even listed because it's so hard to remember all the details well enough to describe them. Most of the things couldn't be described. I can honestly say though, it was on of the most euphoric, mind opening experiences I've ever had. Holy Shit.
Edit: And after reading through the forum I've just found out that there are very few legitimate copies of HoG actually purchased. I'll have to ask him if he's got a reciept for the purchase of it and update, but I plan on buying the MP3 version soon to see if it was the real deal. Regardless if it was or not, it was quite an experience to behold.
