First Time User, DIVINORUM. WOW!

[allaprima]

Hi. I just registered to share my experience and how wonderful it was. I finished Divinorum just now and registered to tell it! (LOL)

First and foremost I was a bit of a skeptic because I tried a hypnotism audio before and it didn't work. I learned about I-doser from a Gates of Hades video from YouTube, got curious, so here I am.

Actually, I really didn't know what to expect. I was even surprised that the audio was only this noise and some soundwaves(?) so I thought how can someone be so scared with just soundwaves? I didn't read. =P

So yeah...I just listened to Divinorum. Was not really concentrating at first and then at one point, I just started to plainly listen to the sound. Within a few minutes I found myself CRYING! Holy crap, I was so shocked! Tried to control it but the tears kept pouring. My chest feels so heavy and my eyebrows are curling down. My face became angry but I was crying. It was really weird... and then these thoughts came to me, I was asking myself "Am I OK?" it's like questioning my self-worth and I was being apologetic. I don't know, it feels like I'm confessing. Then my body felt numb my hands specially, and I asked if God is holding my hands. I DIDN'T FORCE THESE THOUGHTS, THEY JUST CAME! I'm typing this and my hands are still a bit numb---I guess this is the only after effect, I expected the thoughts and feelings to linger after the dose but they didn't.

I think the most surprising part was the crying part. But the thing that scared a bit out of me was the shaking part. My eyes are closed shut but they're fluttering so fast I got no control here and then my head shook. So scary when you have no control but it's so cool. It's a nice scary thing. I thought at first that I might want to try Gates of Hades, I thought "How bad can it be?" but after my Divinorum experience, I think I'll pass.

That's all. Just want to say I-doser freaked me out, it's not 'placebo effect' like what other are saying, definitely not.

Also, I've read some post on this forum and some have visions/hallucinations? Good thing it didn't happen to me, this is all a bit too much for a first timer but can anyone recommend a dose with hallucinations but a good one? I don't want ghosts or anything scary...Thanks!

[RussiasNo1]

very strange.... divinorum isnt used to scare you or make you cry :/

and for hallucinations try tripQH or peyote ;D

[allaprima]

^The scary bit was the shaking part, it's my first time to experience it so it's kinda scary, it's more bordering on being 'freaked out'. But if Divinorum should make me feel fuzzy or good, then sadly I didn't experience any good part, it was plain heavy all throughout.

Hmm...Peyote description seems scary too. Never experienced hallucinations ever so I don't know, it sounds strong. TripQH seems cool, I'll look into it. Thanks for suggesting!

[RussiasNo1]

if your eyes are fluttering and you are moving without wanting it, its normal and happens often when a dose really kicks in, nothing to worry about

i dont know whether you can get hallucinations from i-doser because it seems that you never tried real hallucinogenics and some users wrote that its only possible to get open eye visuals if you had hallucinations before.
but iam not sure because i actually had them before i tried i-doser

[allaprima]

^ That's a bummer for me then, I want some visuals. >_>

[RussiasNo1]

well try it and post your results

[allaprima]

I tried TripQH last night...uhh, I was a bit scared cos I researched first and I read an experience saying he saw figures and it got stuck in my head so yeah it didn't work cos I was paranoid and everytime I feel something I shake it off. I guess I'm not ready yet, I'm such a wuss.

[Bloodbane424]

I'm going to try Divinorum today, I could really use an experience like the one it's supposed to give.

[allaprima]

@Bloodbane Please tell me your results after, I want to know if you have visuals. It seems like some users did.

[Bloodbane424]

I didn't have any visuals, but it put my into a state of relaxation where I felt like a feather, but I also felt a bit heavy. I was extremely relaxed and in a deep meditative state, which is probably why I fell asleep after the dose when I went to lay down. During the time I was awake though, I felt at peace with everything. It's certainly an extremely calming dose, but the kind of calm it induced was so peaceful.

I liked it.

[lynam95]

I've only tried this once, when I was new to i-doser.
didn't get any effects.

[allaprima]

^^ Ah thanks! I'll try Divinorum again tonight and see if I'll get a different result.