Husky's return and Masochist

[NeapolitanHusky]

Howdy again, I-Doser forums.

I haven't been here in a while... Well, I haven't really dosed in a while. I've had other things occupying my time, and about the time I stopped posting on the forums, doses were sorta ineffective at the time. However, I was bored one night with nothing to do, so I decided to boot up I-Doser and return to my first love: Masochist.

I've posted about Masochist before, I just don't want to look that far back in the forums. I had only done it a few times, but I loved the dose entirely. The sensations were completely new to me; phenomenal.

Well, having not done any in a while, I didn't expect much... Boy was I wrong. Masochist is supposed to be a sexual dose. It starts off as an opiate, becomes sexual, and then at the brink of euphoria, it administers the pain. However, I've never actually felt much in terms of sexual stimulation or even pain. So why do I use Masochist more than any other dose?

The opiate, of course. Of all the doses I've tried, none have been so completely numbing as Masochist. Easily within five minutes of taking those dose, I've forgotten I had any semblance of physical form. I am intangible, incorporeal, and entirely without substance.

When I take Masochist, I experience an opiate effect so complete, it's as though I become disembodied thoughts. Just lazy ideas and mellow concepts floating through space, with no body to bind me. There's no such thing as touch or feel or sensation. It always starts in my toes and fingers first, and then works its way up, slowly. Sometimes I feel it start up in my spine, too, radiating outward from there and wrapping me up like a blanket of empty.

Eventually, I hit the sexual portion, and I begin to feel a little again- a little bit more each time, but not enough to completely disrupt the sensation I love and long for so often. It's subtle, but effective. I used to think it only worked for women, but there are some very soft and teasing twinges of complete erotic euphoria here and there. Conveniently, I mostly feel these in my mind, those free-floating thoughts.

Finally, I barely notice when the dose slowly injects pain through my skull and down my arms and legs, but after a moment, it makes itself known. Just like the opiate and euphoria, the pain gets a little stronger every time I take the dose, but it's never enough to make me quit the dose. I'd hardly even call it pain to begin with. When I hit this portion of the dose, I experience the sensation of drills burrowing their way through my skin from the inside, tiny dentist drills all throughout my flesh. I get short, minor cramps, muscle twitches, that annoying "pins and needles" feeling you get when a sleeping limb starts to stir again. The discomfort's actually refreshing, reassuring. It reminds me that I have a body, something familiar, something I can more easily comprehend. Throughout the entire dose, I'm at peace. I'm chill. I'm zen.

Following the dose, I lay there, all the feeling returned to my nerves. It's dark, and all the sounds of my fan and laptop are distorted. I try to move, but I can't. Every time I'm through with Masochist (or it's through with me, rather), I feel weak and limp, but completely at ease. I couldn't move if I tried. It's like waking up from surgery, or trying to move after giving blood.

Eventually, I manage to build up the strength and will to pull off my beautiful Skull Candy Skull Crusher headphones, shut down my laptop, roll over, and sleep.

I've already done Masochist three nights in a row. Tonight will be my fourth, and tomorrow... I think I'll try something new.

Good night, everyone. I'll see you in the astral plane.

[NoDozTweaker]

Hmm perhaps I will have to try this when I'm more experienced. I'm still getting used to the weaker doses. I did opium last night and the warm numbing feeling, though slight for now, helped relax my mind and body for sleep. I'm starting to like it a lot and will probably move onto a stronger numbing dose eventually. I was afraid of the description of masochist, because it sounded like torture, but your description sounds better.

[NeapolitanHusky]

Hmm perhaps I will have to try this when I'm more experienced. I'm still getting used to the weaker doses. I did opium last night and the warm numbing feeling, though slight for now, helped relax my mind and body for sleep. I'm starting to like it a lot and will probably move onto a stronger numbing dose eventually. I was afraid of the description of masochist, because it sounded like torture, but your description sounds better.

You don't need to be afraid of any dose, because there's no such thing as a dose that can actually hurt you in any way. Masochist can create some discomfort in that last stage with strange sensations, and maybe even little twinges of pain here and there with some cramps or muscle spasms, but it takes several sittings before you actually begin to feel anything substantial. Besides, what I feel when I take Masochist is something I had never previously felt before in my life. My favorite part of i-Doser is that it makes you feel things you weren't even aware you COULD feel.