It started kinda like any other dose, and definitely not as sinister as I expected it to be. My mind wondered rapidly, a lot faster than it would have day to day. Then I started to remember memories of my girlfriend and I, really vivid. Almost like I was living through them again. Then the memories started to get distorted. Her eyes would roll back, and she'd fall limp, as if she was dead. This probably happened at then end of every memory, maybe 5 total. The weirdest thing is, I didn't acknowledge the fact that her dying was a bad thing (during the dose). It was just "okay she's dead again let's keep on moving" and I didn't realize how weird this was until maybe an hour after the dose was over.
So then the tone began to change. I started to breathe a lot faster, and I almost felt strangled. I started to hear static noises that sounded like they were from outside the dose (not the normal pink noise). All the memories faded to black, but it was weird, it was a tangible black. Like I was in a closet or a basement. Then the staticy noises started to flock together. I saw a figure in front of me that, in retrospect, looks a lot like how I did when I was maybe 11 years old. The pink noise went away, and I could hear my own breath with scattered static noises. The static in my breath almost sounded like I was trying to say "help me," but I was actually fine with what I was visualizing.
Then the figure got more defined. There was nothing else except for the noiseless dose in my ears and the static in my mind. The static kinda sounded like if you lean an electric guitar too close to an amp. The figure grew colors, and it looked me straight in the eye. I guess it looked just like me as a kid. It opened its mouth, and the static stopped. He had a very electronic voice, but it sounded alive.
My guy said : "he--heyeuuuurrrrrrr---...hello"
and I just stood there terrified. My legs got really cold, and my hands melted off into the couch I was laying on. I tried to open my mouth, but my breath still sounded like it was full of distortion and amp feedback. The figure looked at me, disappointed, and then gave me the weirdest smile. It was calming, accepting, and almost even sensual.
The dose started to fade away, and he just stood there, and his breath and mine both started to fade into the static and twist and turn away.
So then the dose ended , and I stood up, and it was hard for me to walk. However, I felt amazing, and almost euphoric. It wasn't for another 45 minutes or so that I actually realized how terrifying this dose actually is.
8/10, I think a lot of the terrified reviews for the portable one are because of the ambiance and music going on in the background.
Recommended for those who know what they're doing
