Tight hold on my happy.

[drfaceyface]

ugh that title sounds weird.

i just got my hands on idoser blah blah blah. im not whinging, but ive done a bunch and nothing has happened, i just sat on my bed for 35 minutes and listened to "vico", nothing happened, except a tad of lightness. calm ME worked.

ANYWAY, point is, im really depressed lately, great grandmas funeral was last thursday blah blah blah even more whinging. im feeling really horrible lately, brain locks up serotonine and whatnot when your depressed, and i got to thinking, that's probably why all of the "happy" ones. with the descriptions like EUPHORIA, SUPER HAPPY and HEART FULL OF BLINDING LIGHT.

maybe your brains gonna hold onto the happy so tightly that i-doser just cant get it out?

thoughts?