On Saturday I tried marijuana, but I was interrupted. I felt very little. It was just over halfway done.
Sunday morning, I first tried French Roast to wake me up, and that really seemed to do something. When my eyes were closed, I could almost imagine them going back around like a dead Pac-Man, and that was a symbol of me waking up. Later then, I tried White Crosses. I was interrupted less than halfway through and felt nothing.
After all of this, I tried marijuana again, however, I fell asleep for about the last fifteen minutes. The system beep woke me up, and then I felt practically nothing.
I'm going to try something crazier like trip, meth, heroin, or divinorum this week. Any recommendations?
Experience Log
3:30 3-12-07: My first real, almost unaltered experience with the program was great. I could feel myself on fire almost and something going through me, then in my eyes I could see shapes of gray forming and flying by. I fell asleep towards the end, but the so-called BIG BANG woke me up. It was the most amazing feeling I've ever had, even though I only felt the tail end. I look forward to doing it again! I feel clean and refreshed from a life of sin! Also, at the very end, I thought I saw a mouse cursor on the inside of my eyes, a black arrow pointer with a white outline in a blue, Win 95-esque desktop. This was only for a second and my laptop was on the ground so it wasn't me seeing this. Hallucination I guess. AMAZING!
16:21 3-12-07: Cocain Followup - I had an absolutely in-fucking-credible cocaine high for about an hour and a half today after that encounter this morning. I was laughing at random shit, my field of vision was increased (because my eyes were open ALL THE WAY), it was really really great. plus I was awake. i'm going to do it every day.
